September 8, 2008


My story of My Chem saving my life started in the summer of 2005.

In the beging of the summer, my grandmother dIed. Then I was introduced to MCR, I saw the Helena video and I realized that I wasn't the only one going through this shit. The first time I saw the video I new that this band would change my life. 

Unfortunately my parents banned my from listening to them. So I waited the whole summer until school started, I still wasn't that into MCR. I mean I knew a couple songs and that was it. Then my grandpa died and my dad started drinking. It changed him, it made him yell more. When he yelled I felt worthless, I started drinking. Then I lost my best friend, so I started cutting. Then when I did get new friends they were all druggies. So I felt I had to take pills to fit in. I took so much Vicodin, and when I did I got more and more depressed. 

I tried killing myself, but then over the summer I decided "You know what; screw my parents". And I started listening to MCR. They made me happy and I realized I don't need to be doing this shit to be me. They brought me out of my depression. I got out of my goth stage. When I found out about Gerard's struggle with pills and booze I quit cold turkey. I've been clean since then. 

A couple months ago I was talking to my mom and I said "You know what, I listen to MCR, but they make me feel happy, they make me feel like I'm worth something, like I'm beautiful." So my mom talked to my dad and I had them read a magazine about them about how they save lives and now they let me listen to them. And I have to say, my life hasn't been any better.